February 2011
87 posts
I used to read LoveGivesMeHope for nice stories that made me smile, and maybe a few ideas. I used to love romantic comedies. I was definitely on the somewhat girly-end for a guy haha.
Not anymore. What used to make me smile and hopeful just makes me sad now.
I liked it in New York. I had so much work to do I didn’t think about things. I didn’t have time to worry about whether or not...
Certain things hurt very, very much. No matter what, it hurts.
Bucket List
I made a bucket list, in a manner of speaking, this time last year. I guess it was more of a “top 10 wishes” list for my life, goals if you will. There were a few bucket-list-esque things on there, but it didn’t really have that feel.
It’s funny, I look at this list now, and there is very little I would change about it. Some friends say that I’ve grown a lot this...
January 2011
85 posts
Postcards
I bought her a postcard today. A few, actually. Some are just beautiful. I bought a second set to frame for myself. I wish she could see them. One day she will.
I saw so many things I wanted to see; went to so many places I wanted to visit. But it isn’t the same.
I want to come back to New York in the summer/fall. Hopefully in better position with her. In a better situation. I want to...
I wish you were here
So much. I can’t believe I’m here without sharing it with you. It bothers me. If only you felt the same
I miss you so much
God damn it, it sucks so much.
Weird
There are certain things that happen, certain ideas and thoughts that I have, that I wish I could put on here. But I just can’t. Some things should be kept to yourself. I will say that I really hate how cryptic I get on here. But it’s better to do this here than on facebook. Anyways, cryptically, here’s what happened today:
I was pretty busy at work. I’d like to...
The only advise
I have to give, the only advise I think you really need:
If you want someone, forget everything else and just go. Go tell them, go show them, just go. Drop what you’re doing, right now. Don’t think about looking crazy. Don’t think about looking needy. Just go do it. Because if you wait too long, you’ll have to wait forever.
Like me. I’m waiting forever.
Her Majesty
Her Majesty’s a pretty nice girl, but she doesn’t have a lot to say Her Majesty’s a pretty nice girl but she changes from day to day I want to tell her that I love her a lot But I gotta get a belly full of wine Her Majesty’s a pretty nice girl Someday I’m going to make her mine, oh yeah, Someday I’m going to make her mine.
Thank you, Beatles, for making today...
Things I have obsessed over
Just saw an awesome post (view it here) of a childhood obsession, Rainbow Bright. My cousins had it on a VHS, and anytime I could I would watch it over, and over, and over. I remember going to Mr. Video - the coolest video store ever (it was roughly the size of 4 midsize sedans) - and finding every episode/movies/whatever they called them of Rainbow Bright to find out what she did next. And yes,...
it's been a really fucking bad day.
to put it mildly. i have to go do work. my head hurts already. so does my hip again. bs.
sorry to my friends who read this and might worry, or frustrated, or whatever. and sorry to the people who have called to talk and leave voicemails and i haven’t called back. it’s not that i’m super busy it’s that i don’t want to complain and i really can’t talk without doing that right now. i complain on here and only here. i feel fucking helpless right now and...
Snow.
it’s snowing here in indy. not snowing a lot but it’s steady. it’s big flakes, the kind that sticks to things really well. basically, it’s the perfect kind of snow. the kind that you just want to walk around in, watching and talking.
i wish she could be here to see it. and i wish i could tell her about it.
i miss you more than you know. all i could think about during my...
Lost Sanity
I just went to the grocery store. I miss that so much. It was my favorite thing to do in college. Yes, I liked going to the grocery more than attending basketball games, more than working athletic events, more than watching colts games with friends, and more than drinking with my close friends.
Basically, I love going to the grocery. I do my best thinking there. My favorite time to go is at...
advice i can give
never be an asshole. to anyone. for any reason. if doing so really does make you feel better, you are not a nice person. end of story.
This might be the best Clients from Hell ever
clientsfromhell:
Client: “Your portfolio and skills impress me quite a bit. I would really love to hire you for this job but before that I would like to ask you one question: are you from Iran?”
Me: “Yep, I was born there and have been living in America since I was 3. Is it important to you?”
Client: “I am not comfortable working with terrorists.”
Sharing
I try to share things. I try to share most things actually: stuff I own, stuff I make, ideas, videos, stories, whatever. I like being able to share it with friends. But there is one thing I never share: gift ideas. It’s my favorite thing in the world to do, find and pick out gifts for people. And I don’t mean shop. I like finding stuff online, interesting things you wouldn’t...
The only good thing about today
was the 2 oreos I had for dessert. And I suppose my new external hard drive that arrived today is cool too. 2tb, small, and silent. Hopefully HIMYM was new last night so I can go watch it. Not expecting anything though.
You can disregard anything I have ever said since I can’t figure anything out for myself. I’m totally fucking lost and confused and I have nothing to look forward to or get excited about anymore. What’s the point of running if you aren’t running towards something? There is none. I’ll keep doing it anyways because I literally have nothing else to do
February 5th, 2012
That’s the date of the 2012 Super Bowl being held in my hometown, Indianapolis. I had a chance to go to the Super Bowl last year in Miami with someone special. I didn’t have the money at the time. I kick myself every day for not finding a way. Just like I kick myself every day for a million other mistakes. I want to tell her this time next year, I want it to be different. I want to be...
Lunchtime anger
This is ridiculous. First, before I start, I should say that my lunch sucks. And nothing puts me in a worse mood than having to eat bad food. But ok. Fucking do it yourself. Seriously. I like helping people. But jesus, learn. Listen. Stop wasting time. Multi task. If someone gives you a piece of paper and a pencil and asks for a drawing of a unicorn, do not come to me and ask for a picture of a...
Done.
Just done. I’m through, finished, sick of this nonsense. Sick of wasting time over trivial matters. Sick of the secrets, sick of the bullshit. It’s over. I quit. Figure it out yourself.
Things get ruined for me a lot easier than they should. There are movies I just can’t watch anymore because of things I associate them with. There is music I can’t listen to anymore. Books I can’t read because of something they talk about or their setting. Places I can’t go and things I can’t do. And when I say they’re ruined, I don’t mean for now. I mean...
Frustrated
I guess I should be used to it by now.
Your Zodiac Sign May Have Changed →
How did it take this long for someone to do this? Still, it is interesting. At least I think so
via fencehopping:
Astronomers have restored the original Babylonian zodiac by recalculating the dates that correspond with each sign to accommodate millennia of subtle shifts in the Earth’s axis. Prepare to have your minds blown, all you people with easily blowable minds.
The Most Amazing Press Release Ever Written →
Love this. And yes, it’s real.
